I go through my days...

I go through my days

Feeling the craze that I have started

Live life in a daze

Bless the dearly departed

Life clearly uncharted

And you can go in any direction

I choose the gutter I guess 'cause it feels like an infection

Has come over my brain

Try to find love but only end up with pain

I feel the shame

In my soul from the sin that I spread

Some people think it's cool

But I'm better off dead than to be hurting anyone

Sooner or later they'll point the gun

Many have tried before

When will I die? I can't take it anymore

Let downs or frowns instead of smiles

Bad memories I've got piles and piles

Could build a dam to block the Nile

A fool with my heart beautiful women I defile

It's nothing to proud of

Trapped in a cloud of ignorant deeds

To free myself I follow creeds

The Buddah now leads me on my path

Wish I could make a dash to freedom

Gonna write a book and hope to lead the young

From the pain I've seen

If you write rules and read them you'll come out clean

I've been so mean with caring hearts

Love is a balloon

And I'm like darts

Pop

There goes another one

Pop

The stitches that hold my heart together have come undone

Live life for fun

But now I see the illusion

My heart beats hard but I suffer contusions

My decisions have left me in prisons

In my soul

God help me control my impulses

I speak truth and not falsehoods

My pulse quickens with the thought of death

But I can make it

I'll just take a deep breath

In

Out

-Jason Yurcic (Voice of My Heart)